Monthly Archives: January 2012
A Walk
Lets just take a walk, you and me
A stroll around that park, of all others free
You can hold my hand like that just above the elbow
Lean on my shoulder and match step for step
Lets talk of things we thought we had forgotten
of things we want to forget and of things we never can
Lets talk as if to ourselves but only somehow better
Lets share this space, this moment, this heartbeat
Lets leave what needs no telling unsaid
Lets not wonder of where it will all go to in the end
Lets forget time and promises and all else that isn’t you or me
Lets take a walk, just you and me
Bohemia tales...
The following belongs to “About me”. If there was ever a piece I could relate to, completely, its this. Just that I haven’t written it. And I don’t even know who has…all I know is I’ve had it on me for a long long time.It’s a tad long but read it. Trust me.
We lost ourselves the day we were born…
Self Preservation
Self preservation, its a term i heard a long long while ago.. It was something new to me, or so i thought.. But now looking back i am guilty of it and have been for quite a while.. To people who are unfamiliar with the term- it more or less means ” protecting ones self from pain/injury/sadness by any and all means necessary”.. Come to think of it , most people do it.. We bury memories which we are not proud of.. We take decisions that will save our skins.. We refuse to accept responsibility as long as it isn’t absolutely necessary..
I am on that mode as of now, and have decided that its safer that way.. Keeping your expectations lower, and removing all expectations people have on you is relieving.. It might mean a few awkward silences, a little pain for now, but in the long run people tend to forgive and forget.. Who we are now is just a shadow in the mosaic of our lives, a chapter in a story (a short chapter at that).. Lives will go on , people will move on.. Sometimes i wish for Harry potters invisibility cloak, for out of sight is often out of mind..
PS: This post was written a few years ago. Sharing this now, just to kind of get closure.
Define Life
Everyone who has ended up here has for sure one time or other pondered the meaning of that simple four letter word to which there is no real definition. Everyone has their own ideas or beliefs attached to it, making it all the more bearable.
I have my fleeting ideologies too, more often than not residing closely to karma and dharma, i have no belief in athma though which makes my beliefs not have the weight they normally carry. Anyways, i have heard some interesting ideas and wanted to letit out into the world, hear similar ideas or contrasting emotions..
1. The Higher Purpose Principle: We are born to serve a higher purpose. The days we are alive, merely a web of interlinked events, aimed at delivering one final act, one powerhouse performance, one stupendous event that we might never realize even happened.
2. The Evolution Principle: This I found hilarious but maybe more true than any of us are ready to accept, we are just another of natures experiments, a part of the evolutionary chain, that will be discarded sometime in the future without a second thought as a better, faster, smarter species takes over.
3. The Nonsense Theory: The whole idea being that it makes no sense and thinking about it makes no sense, discussing this makes no sense either and writing about it is also just to prove that it is total nonsense.
4. The Me theory: This one is awesome and something Barney Stinson should adopt. The core idea being that everything that happened was leading to me being born and everything thats happening after is for my personal entertainment or education (the tough parts as Calvin’s dad puts it ” Builds Charachter”)
5. Karma / Dharma: The cause and effect principle underlying Hinduism, Budhism and Jainism, it has variants in all religions. Simply that everything that we do has an after effect, which means I am headed to a terrifying end that is getting closer. Cant wait.
6. All this made me make up The Tito Principle, which sees its very first expression here and now: Any discussion or thoughts on this topic is moot. Noone has a clue and the conversational arguments are getting stale.
PS: In case you haven’t noticed, I avoided the word Life in the text above. But always wanted to start and end a post with the same word and so lets see who can life define ?
Random Sparks of Brightness – I
Have decided to start jotting down the random things that suddenly enlighten me to some very big truths. So, here goes no. 1 on the list
1. Most men do not understand a word when two women are chatting (we prefer it that way), until and unless they decide to use a code trying to make it difficult to understand (often making us perk our ears up and take notice, often to find the so called code so easy to break that it makes us feel secure to go back to day dreaming).
Special thanks here to Bella.
No Free Lunches..
There are no free lunches in life’s long lanes..
Help comes at a price, often measured in pain..
Every stranger is a possible friend..
Most fraud, some true from above are send..
Friendships of convenience are all that exist today..
Ties that bind are broken, when truth has its final say..
We all pretend and smile as if nothing is wrong..
A smile not reaching our eyes, with the rest going along..
Sympathy is a word without meaning today..
It doesnt really matter whatever you say..
Someones pain is seen only if nothing else is in the way..
Noone wants to be the shoulder to cry on, not today..
The blog 2011 in review
ROTFL. Had to post this just coz of the nice round number my visitors made in total – 1500 
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The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 1,500 times in 2011. If it were a cable car, it would take about 25 trips to carry that many people.
A Good Man
” You are not a bad man, its just that you are not really good” – from the movie Matchstick Men..
This line from the movie somehow , somewhere in the deep dark recesses within me let something free. I had always wondered why people always considered me a nice guy (point to be noted: Never had anybody call me a good man.)
I always thought guys like me were a dime a dozen and am slowly realizing thats not entirely true. So i looked around to find what was it that made women think i was any better than the average Joe. The amazing findings (with no statistical proof whatsoever) are the following. I still havent decided if I can gloat about it or need to fix them.
The reason for the same being that I cloak the abnormal better. I can fake a smile and show enthusiasm at things that i dont care about in the least. Plus after the accident, my already good listening skills went up a notch and it now borders on pretty awesome.
My memory sucks, i mean i cant remember faces or names from a childhood that was pretty damn awesome. I play along for the most part nodding my head as the stories come along, painting vivid pictures in my mind, turning what was already pretty awesome into something legen- ” wait for it ” – dary.
I cant say no to women (there I admit it) and whenever I do, i cringe inside feeling useless and so the constant saying Yes and then getting things done makes me pretty handy to have around.
I can write better(not speak better) than most of my friends ( in the casual unofficial manner like this blog ) and it impresses most people i meet. I rhyme on demand and i still cant figure out why that is so incredible.
The thing is there are a lot of guys like me out there and it is not a dying kind either. But women dont see most of them i guess.
To sum it all up, Men – do something about it (move out of the comfy chairs at home drinking beer with buddies and be a lil more active. Bathe and shave first please ). Women (there are quite a lot of these guys around, if you really like nice guys – go find them). Tito – You just exposed something you are going to dearly regret and could end up ruining the above said reputation. Good luck with that !!!
2011 – Bloody Awesome
2011- formed my own company with friends for partners, tried to run it and failed miserably, found friends that stood by me, visited Sri Lanka, lost more money than I can afford on the stock market, moved to Doha, fell in love with a girl I have met but never known, had to move on.. Was best man at my best friends wedding, drank myself to auto pilot mode, slapped a guy, fell asleep in the bathroom, spent 2 days without phone or internet in Coorg, started to like cats thanks to a spectacular male of the species, went to a Xmas sale, donated cookies to animal welfare, missed a flight to spend time with brother and cousin, had turtles for pets, celebrated biggest birthday bash ever, saw India win the World Cup, got 2 free cases of beer from Fosters. Had a road trip to Pondy, came back from Mahabalipuram, Drank till 6 in the morning, walked out and was pulled back in for “Otteorrenumkoode”, played poker and black jack in a real life casino, played poker, 3 patti and rummy with friends, made my own style of biriyani, watched a live performance inside one of the hugest malls in India, slept in a movie theatre, hugged a crying friend, got my shirt torn on Holi, kissed in the rain, was involved in an almost bar-fight, cycled again after ages, sold chai in a bakery and almost got bit by a dog..
Won a competition on facebook and got an author signed copy of “Life is What You Make it” by Preeti Shenoy..
Pack so much into 1 year.. Bloody Awesome I think..
